alohabetty replied to your post: Truthful Tuesday

…Have you ever sought counseling or medical therapy?

I know that therapy and medication both help some people immensely, and I would never sneer at that.  However, I am personally pretty cynical in my views on both, so I am extremely doubtful that it would have any effect on me.  One of my main sources of frustration is the fact that I don’t complete any of my quite good creative ideas, and I’d love the ability to focus on that.  But once again, the idea of taking drugs to even out the chemicals in my brain terrifies me.

Truthful Tuesday

Is there anything left for me to be truthful about?  You people already know me better than 95% of the people I interact with in “real” life.

How about this: I put on a fairly brave face for the world, but every month includes at least one day where I have to talk myself down from just killing myself and getting it all over with.  The fact is: I hate living.  I hate the burden of slogging through another miserable day, sun-up to sundown, over and over again.  It’s all fraught with misery, disappointment, frustration and moments of joy that are so fleeting you wonder, in retrospect, if they even occurred at all.  Some people fear death, but not me.  I just fear pain.  The things that keep me here are love and the unwillingness to spend my last moments on Earth in pain.

So.

Maybe that was too truthful.

I’m also never closer to checking out than I am over the holidays.  So merry Christmas, everybody!  Enjoy all of your holiday “cheer” and the forced togetherness and the smiles that are really grimaces.

This Is Weird

I just got unfollowed for teasing somebody who claimed to “love The Clash” but who posted a song off of their final, Mick Jones-free album Cut the Crap, which is generally considered by fans and members of the band themselves to be a fucking disaster, which it is.

I don’t make it a point to go around unfollowing the people who unfollow me.  I really don’t give a damn.  But if somebody has this fragile a sense of humor, you have to wonder why they ever followed me in the first place.

Unfollowed.

Sorry for teasing you.

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Are you a Whedon fan, or exclusively a Buffy fan? When I was on holiday in Pittsburgh(don’t ask) years ago I bought the “SunnyDale High” yearbook. :)

I liked Buffy and the first three seasons of Angel.  I think Firefly was a great premise poorly executed (however, I mostly liked the movie), and Dollhouse was huge pile of poo, just terrible, terrible garbage, just really fucking godawful dogshit.

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You must admit that this is one of the few cases where the “spin off” tv show from a movie was actually better then the movie itself. I do agree though, Buffy herself was only mildly more interesting then her mom. mmm..Angel and Spike.

The series is better than the movie by a factor of infinity.  I don’t have to “admit” anything, because it’s plainly obvious.  Anybody who prefers Whedon’s compromised movie script to the series, where he could do anything he wanted, is, to put it bluntly, a moron.